“I feel like Ive been living in a consistent state of suspension. Like I’m just hovering between things, nothing grounding me, nothing pulling me in any direction. Just floating from one day to the next with no structure to help distinguish days. Sometimes this feeling is exciting and freeing, other times, this feeling makes me feel lonely and lost.”—My Interrupted Fairy Tale (via quotewhore) (via arianesantos) (via talkplaylove)
“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”—(via myutterescape) (via thoseprettystrangers) (via luxwillow) (via katelizabeth)
And sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere, all of a sudden this overwhelming sadness rushes over me. And I get discouraged and I get upset and I feel hopeless, sad, and hurt. And once again, I’m numb to the world.
“Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep? We whisper the words in the dark, telling ourselves that we’re happy, or that he’s happy, that people will change their minds. We persuade ourselves that we can live without the people who have left. Each night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true.”—(via raindropsonredroses)
“i wanted to kill the me underneath. that fact haunted my days and nights. when you realize you hate yourself so much, when you realize that you cannot stand who you are, and this deep spite has been the motivation behind your behavior for many years, your brain can’t quite deal with it. it will try very hard to avoid that realization; it will try, in a last-ditch effort to keep your remaining parts alive, to remake the rest of you. this is, i believe, different from the suicidal wish of those who are in so much pain that death feels like relief, different from the suicide i would later attempt, trying to escape that pain. this is a wish to murder yourself; the connotation of kill is too mild. this is a belief that you deserve slow torture, violent death.”— marya hornbacher (via thechocolatebrigade)