“I guess I should have reacted the way most of the other girls were, but I couldn’t get myself to react. I felt very still and very empty, the way the eye of a tornado must feel, moving dully along in the middle of the surrounding hullabaloo.”—Sylvia Plath (via thechocolatebrigade)
i want to tell people, but then i feel awkward and guilty because why would they honestly need or want to know? people don’t want to hang around sad people. and how would you bring it up, ‘hey i’m depressed….’ then what?
part of me wishes they could just notice, and then do something to make me feel better, but i don’t know if there is anything that could make me feel better, or if there is - i have no idea what it would be.
“I am interested in anything about revolt, disorder, chaos-especially activity that seems to have no meaning. It seems to me to be the road toward freedom… Rather than starting inside, I start outside and reach the mental through the physical.”—Jim Morrison (via thechocolatebrigade)
“Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those.”—The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via thechocolatebrigade)
“Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize all long that you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you.”—ghostofmydreams (via goodbyekisses) (via happypinkypill) (via herfairy-tale) (via volatilefaces) (via katelizabeth)
“I think part of the reason I’m attracted to Foster is because he’s such a mess. I mean, the people I have loved in my life have never been easy to love. I’m not used to normal. I’m used to disaster. I don’t know, as messed up as he is, he’s also sort of exciting, sort of a challenge. I’m accustomed to working for love.”—Dry by Augusten Burroughs (via thechocolatebrigade)
Do they think I have it easy? Do they think I have nothing going on for myself? Or are they fascinated with who I am? The thing is no one will ever know my whole story. No one will ever know the things I’ve had to overcome. Not even my closest friends, not even my own family. The thing is people are so quick to judge nowadays. You only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to look as put together as I can, and I guess that’s my way of hiding from the truth. It’s just that that way everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay. That I never go through anything. If only everyone knew how broken I am, and how I’m holding on for dear life on this last strand that’s recently become very delicate. The truth is that no one really knows me. No one will ever know me, and sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know why I am the way I am.
“The tough thing about following your heart is that people forget to mention that sometimes the heart takes you to places you shouldn’t be. Places that are scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring. Sometimes your heart cannot take you to places that lead to happy ending. That’s not even the difficult part. The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal. You go into the unknown and once you do, you can never go back.”—(via raindropsonredroses)
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me…everyday.”—Noah, The Notebook (via ohbabyitsnatalie)
I just feel like no matter how much i type, rant, scream or cry right now, i won’t feel any better. I feel empty, i feel lonely, i feel this huge growing numbness inside of me. I don’t think it will ever leave. It’s crazy because i don’t know why i feel like this. Everything is fine. I just feel like i will never be happy again at this very moment.